And yet, the Lord continues to call me. He keeps prompting me. He is always leading me. He never stops speaking to me. He tells me that I need not be perfect. Because He is. He tells me to keep trying. And that I will inevitably have to try again. He tells me I will fail. And that He will not fail. He does not throw me away for someone smarter, more educated, better looking, more eloquent. He tells me to come to Him, and He will give me rest. He tells me His grace is sufficient for me. He tells me that He can use me. Even though I really am not that usable.
The Lord is not surprised by my great inadequacy. He actually says in His Word that any righteousness I possess is to Him like a filthy rag. Perspective. I am so very small. He is so very big. I am weak. He is strong. I am powerless. He is all powerful. I am faithless. He is faithful.
God is not surprised that you cannot keep up. He is not taken off guard because you messed up once again. He is not dumfounded that you feel inadequate, ordinary, of little consequence. However, you must know that the Gospel is Good News for the inadequate. Christ is extraordinary for the ordinary. Jesus is of great consequence for the inconsequential. He is cleanser for the filthy rag. For where you miss the mark, He has squarely nailed it. While we were still sinners, Christ died for us.
So... Try. Fail. Try again. Fail again. Get up. Fall. The Westminster Catechism says that "Man's chief end is to glorify God, and to enjoy Him forever." Keep seeking to glorify Him. As you miss the mark, enjoy the peace that comes in knowing Christ DOES NOT miss the mark. Take joy in His adequacy. His accuracy. Forever.
For the word of the cross is folly to those who are perishing, but to us who are being saved it is the power of God. For it is written,
“I will destroy the wisdom of the wise,
and the discernment of the discerning I will thwart.”
Where is the one who is wise? Where is the scribe? Where is the debater of this age? Has not God made foolish the wisdom of the world? For since, in the wisdom of God, the world did not know God through wisdom, it pleased God through the folly of what we preach to save those who believe. For Jews demand signs and Greeks seek wisdom, but we preach Christ crucified, a stumbling block to Jews and folly to Gentiles, but to those who are called, both Jews and Greeks, Christ the power of God and the wisdom of God. For the foolishness of God is wiser than men, and the weakness of God is stronger than men.
For consider your calling, brothers: not many of you were wise according to worldly standards, not many were powerful, not many were of noble birth. But God chose what is foolish in the world to shame the wise; God chose what is weak in the world to shame the strong; God chose what is low and despised in the world, even things that are not, to bring to nothing things that are, so that no human being might boast in the presence of God. And because of him you are in Christ Jesus, who became to us wisdom from God, righteousness and sanctification and redemption, so that, as it is written, “Let the one who boasts, boast in the Lord.”
1 Corinthians 1:18-31 ESV